As usual, I have so many thoughts running through my head. Mostly I just like to share what’s going on in my world and hopefully someone else can connect with it. I’ve been learning so much over the last couple weeks. And it’s crazy, because I felt like the last few months I haven’t had a clue what I was supposed to be doing or learning. It was just silence. And waiting. That’s what it felt like to me at least.
The overall theme of the last month has been TRUST. I thought I trusted God a ton. Ha, I got proven wrong. I realized how much I like to control things and how little peace I have when things don’t happen the way I want them to happen. So the thing that I realized is that when other people are struggling in life I just want to change it so badly and help them out. The bad side of it is trying to help everyone and make sure everything is alright in their world. As you can probably guess, this gets overwhelming. I’d feel so guilty if someone came up to me and asked me for help and I couldn’t help them or didn’t feel like I was supposed to do anything about it.
I’m one of those people that will see a homeless person and think, “Oh, they need my help… OH, and so does that other homeless person. And that guy in a wheelchair! Oh no, I don’t have enough time in the day to do this.” Oh my, I’d feel SO guilty. I felt like if I passed a person with a need and didn’t do something to change it that I was being selfish. So God taught me a simple thing to do in this. He showed me that other people’s hearts and circumstances aren’t up to me to control. He showed me that I can have a part in it though to help.
I can do two things:
1.) Ask God to provide whatever they need.
2.) Then trust Him to do it. Just let go of it.
He will show us if he wants us to do something more. But you can’t help every single person in the world. It’s not possible. If you could your name would be Jesus. And it’s probably not. And if it is, it’s probably pronounced little differently…with a silent “J”. Anyway, you’re not the Savior of the world. Get over it.
Again, like I say, just talk to Jesus. He knows everything.