For the past few weeks, maybe even months, I’ve felt like I have been just cruising through life without any real purpose. I don’t know how to fully explain it – mostly because I’m still processing a lot. Who I am, where I want to be in life, what I want to pursue. All those things. I’ve felt like I haven’t really connected with God the way that I want to. I’ve felt unmotivated to spend time with Him. I’ve felt dull.
I want to focus on the things that are most important to me. I want to be intentional. With God, with friends, with any relationships. I want to be intentional about seeking out the purpose God intentionally put in me when He created me. I want to understand my significance.
There are so many things that I wanted to focus on and haven’t been faithful in. I know that I don’t want to settle for anything less than who I was created to be. I don’t want to lower my standards. I’ve decided that I want to surround myself with people who inspire me and are full of faith. I also want to be one of these people who inspire others. I know I can’t do it on my own. Jesus, awaken my heart to your love. Be my fascination.
I’ve been inspired again to sign up for these things again. I love that God is so good and patient towards me.