Something that I’ve had a hard time with is God being my friend. Crazy, right? I mean, I talk to him quite a bit – more than anyone else I know. No, I don’t mean I talk to God more than anyone else talks to him. I mean that God is the person I talk to most. Come on. So shouldn’t he be my best friend? It’s pretty easy for me to talk to him about the “spiritual” things. I know he loves to talk about them… well… cause they’re spiritual.
I had this thought the other day (actually I think it’s been rolling around in my brain for a while), but I finally started to talk to God about it.
What about all the normal things? For example, does God like talking about the girl that I like, or a t.v. show or movie that I like, or even just things I like to do. I could go on and on about the “normal/unspiritual” things. It may be an easy question for you to answer, but to me, it hasn’t been. Cause, I like to talk about those things. I could talk all day long to God about a girl that I like or about sweet movie ideas that I have.
I’ve been asking this question because I’ve been putting this pressure on myself of how I spend time. What I spend my time doing. When I’m doing something that’s not “spiritual”, like exercising or watching a movie or listening to non-Christian music I have this anxiety that I have to finish this activity quickly because I’m not doing things for God or getting the “important” things done like reading my bible or doing quiet time with him.
It’s actually something that he’s been starting to answer. And I know the typical bible answer – whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. I know that’s true. But I want to REALLY know that God enjoys me in those things.
I want him to be my friend like that again. That’s how it used to be. I want to talk about anything with him – everything with him. It can be about pizza. I don’t care. I want to know him like that again. I just want a FRIEND. Who cares about the things that I care about. I want him to ask me about the “normal” things going on in my life. I want him to be involved in EVERY part of my life – not just the “spiritual” things. I don’t want “spiritual” and “non-spiritual” to be divided. I just want everything I do in my life to be with him.
I don’t know if you got anything out of that, but it was nice to type that out and see what I’ve been trying to put to words.