Hey, here’s my newest short. It’s a promo for a Got Milk contest.
God has really been teaching me not to fear what other people think and to step out and do what I believe I am hearing from Him. That doesn’t mean that I don’t listen to wisdom from people. It means that if I believe something, then I don’t just stop going after it because someone tells me something different.
One of those things is to pursue being an entrepreneur and starting my own film company. It’s who He’s created me to be. And I think I am a darn good entrepreneur. This is what I believe He’s been saying to me and that’s what I want to stand by. I’m loving finding out more and more of who God created me to be. Cause He only creates amazing things. So, you are amazing as well. Really amazing. Sometimes we just aren’t being who God created us to be. And that’s why it doesn’t seem amazing. It’s not what you do, but it’s who you are.
Here’s what God has spoken about me. It’s right above my desk. I usually need a reminder, because I’m not always being myself
I am a passionate man who inspires the people around me. I am called to counsel with wisdom and encourage people to be who they were created to be. I have hope even when no one else does. I will cause people to be filled with belief in the goodness of God. I am strong and lion-hearted. I am creative and a dreamer. I am called to bring my smile, humor, laughter, and fun. I am a servant of love and a loyal friend. I am someone who is genuine and makes people feel important and loved.
This is who I am. Who are you?
That’s what God has been showing me about himself for the last year. He is the creator of the universe. He really can change whatever he wants to in whatever timing he wants to. And I personally believe that we can be a part of that by asking Him. And sometimes He just likes us so much that He does it even when we don’t ask.
So, I’m actually writing this from Wheaton, IL. Right next to Wheaton College. I moved out here just a week ago with a couple legit guys from church. You haven’t heard yet? You’re surprised? Yeah, me too. I was not planning this for very long. After being back home for two years after college and IHOP (International House of Prayer – not the pancake house, silly.) I thought I would still be there for at least 3-6 months if not longer.
A month or so ago I felt God asking me to take a step of faith. Being a freelance filmmaker I don’t ever really know how consistent my work will be for the month, so it’s hard for me to schedule and budget things. That was originally why I didn’t move out here a year ago. And so one day I got a call from my roommate, Micah, who asked me if I wanted to move in. Before that day I didn’t really have any plans of moving. But here I am. I made that decision in less than a week and am trusting that God will provide. There has not been a moment where He has not provided for me. And usually in these cases of stepping out it happens in amazing ways. I will keep you updated.
You might cry.
As usual, I have so many thoughts running through my head. Mostly I just like to share what’s going on in my world and hopefully someone else can connect with it. I’ve been learning so much over the last couple weeks. And it’s crazy, because I felt like the last few months I haven’t had a clue what I was supposed to be doing or learning. It was just silence. And waiting. That’s what it felt like to me at least.
The overall theme of the last month has been TRUST. I thought I trusted God a ton. Ha, I got proven wrong. I realized how much I like to control things and how little peace I have when things don’t happen the way I want them to happen. So the thing that I realized is that when other people are struggling in life I just want to change it so badly and help them out. The bad side of it is trying to help everyone and make sure everything is alright in their world. As you can probably guess, this gets overwhelming. I’d feel so guilty if someone came up to me and asked me for help and I couldn’t help them or didn’t feel like I was supposed to do anything about it.
I’m one of those people that will see a homeless person and think, “Oh, they need my help… OH, and so does that other homeless person. And that guy in a wheelchair! Oh no, I don’t have enough time in the day to do this.” Oh my, I’d feel SO guilty. I felt like if I passed a person with a need and didn’t do something to change it that I was being selfish. So God taught me a simple thing to do in this. He showed me that other people’s hearts and circumstances aren’t up to me to control. He showed me that I can have a part in it though to help.
I can do two things:
1.) Ask God to provide whatever they need.
2.) Then trust Him to do it. Just let go of it.
He will show us if he wants us to do something more. But you can’t help every single person in the world. It’s not possible. If you could your name would be Jesus. And it’s probably not. And if it is, it’s probably pronounced little differently…with a silent “J”. Anyway, you’re not the Savior of the world. Get over it.
Again, like I say, just talk to Jesus. He knows everything.